1. |
I Think I'm Part of You
01:13
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Hello? I think I'm part of you
I think we lost touch somewhere along the line
And I really want to come back and spend some time with you
Open my mind to you
Love you
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2. |
Doing Fine, Thx
02:12
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What am I to do
I want so bad to love you
If you try we can change
It doesn't have to be this way
That's right I'm fine
I just checked off the last thing on my
List of things I gotta do before I die
I've seen the world
I've explored every nook and cranny
After all you didn't give me much of a choice
You left me cold
So I folded up my paper soul and I learned how to cope
What am I to do
I want so bad to love you
If you try we can change
It doesn't have to be this way
Won't you be mine
I think I got it all figured out
Just in time for you to leave my dumb-ass behind
I learned to code
You skipped your classes for a warm bowl
Even though you knew you'd only further push me away
I guess I'll leave now
'Cause you won't talk to me yeah you won't even open your mouth
What am I to do
I want so bad to love you
If you try we can change
It doesn't have to be this way
I wanted to be friends
I guess this is how it ends
You don't wanna be mine
I think that I'll be just fine
I think that I'll be just fine
I think that I'll be just fine
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3. |
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You took my picture with a Polaroid camera
I sat cross legged on the floor and I never try to break bad habits
And I can't forget your name anymore
'Cause It's engraved on my shoulder
And even though you'll hurt me
We'll try our best and I love you
I love you
I love you
We can stay this way forever
Is that possible
I'm willing to bet I'm right
I could write songs and wallow in self pity all I want
But that won't help me change to include
And accommodate healthy behavior patterns
So I'll wait for real inspiration to arrive
And even though you'll hurt me
We'll try our best and I love you
I love you
I love you
We can stay this way forever
Is that possible
I'm willing to bet I'm right
I could lie and say every year I never change but my
Poetry gets increasingly loose and my love
Is expanding by the day to include
People I don't even like
And even though you'll hurt me
We'll try our best and I love you
I love you
I love you
We can stay this way forever
Is that possible
I'm willing to bet I'm right
Can we stay this way forever
Can we stay this way forever
Can we stay this way forever
Can we stay this way
We can stay this way forever
We can stay this way forever
We can stay this way forever
We can stay this way
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4. |
Gently
02:04
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Gently I will follow you inside
Gently I will love you 'till I die
Slowly we will change over time
Kindly will you keep me in your mind
Gently I will tell you how much
Open we will stay to whats to come
Gently something will leave us after dawn
Only to return with the lessons and what I've learned and what I've done
No matter what happens to us
I'm gonna keep keeping up
I'm gonna keep needing us
I'm gonna stay yours
No matter what happens to us
I'm gonna keep keeping up
I'm gonna keep needing us
I'm gonna stay yours
No matter what happens to us
I'm gonna keep keeping up
I'm gonna keep needing us
I'm gonna stay yours
No matter what happens to us
I'm gonna keep keeping up
I'm gonna keep needing us
I'm gonna stay yours
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5. |
Factory
01:53
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It's a funny game we're playing trespassing in the school
It's funnier how you're looking at me as if I'm actually cool
Get caught up in the lies we tell I won't
Tell on you
We wear white shirts
We lose our minds on the premises
We're kicking up dirt
Empty halls and empty promises
And I won't forgive you for the things you've done to me
I'ts just unhealthy
And I can't forgive you for the things you've said to me
Your mind is a factory
It's funny how you think breaking the rules
Makes you more of a boy
The fact is you're wrong you should just be yourself
But in the end I'm not your toy
And that annoys you I can't be destroyed
My mind is mine and nothing more
And I won't forgive you for the things you've done to me
I'ts just unhealthy
And I can't forgive you for the things you've said to me
Your mind is a factory
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6. |
Yikes
01:42
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You're too much like her
And I'm too much like my father
We all got what we wanted
A chance at freedom a chance to find ourselves
Where are we going
I just wanna know so I can follow you there
It's already snowing
Please don't leave me standing here in the cold
Standing here in the cold
I know I'm not the one you wanted me to be
But I know I am the only way that I can be
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7. |
Oh No
02:44
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I broke down 'cause I saw the street you crushed my heart on
Polarity switched like a god damn magnet
In the middle of our prime
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel
You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel
Me
I can't feel that way
Me
I can't act my age
Me
Living out all my days
Me
Forever on the stage
Of my heart
I left you in our prime but it was all your fault
But you bet your bottom fucking dollar
That I'd be back really really soon
Oh you knew I could never leave you
You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel
You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel
Me
I can't feel that way
Me
I can't act my age
Me
Living out all my days
Me
Forever on the stage
Of my art
But I never came back
But I never came back
But I never came back
But I never came back
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
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8. |
Her
01:33
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But now the tears won't come to my eyes
It's like I never learned how to cry
Just kept it all pent up inside
For most of those years
Losing sight of my mind
And never left this disguise
Until I saw a blinding light
Now my old body's eviscerated and what's left is greatly damaged
Love you
Love you
Can I love myself
Can I become her
Just give me some kind of sign
I wanna reevaluate my life
But oh I'm stuck trying so hard
To not let it show
Scraping myself by until I'm
Bled bone fucking dry
Crawling on the ground headed in the right direction
Love you
Love you
Can I love myself
Can I become her
Leave your scrapes behind
I know you're bruised but I don't mind
We know how to stay beautiful inside
Always stay the way that we want to be
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9. |
Elora
02:01
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Elora lost her mind in the canyons serpentine
Elora leave me here to drown my eyes and disappear
If it's over to you then it's over to me too
If it's over to you then it's over to me too
Take me on a bike-ride through the hills
I cannot identify my own mass appeal
I am insane I can't lose the weight
But I'm holding on to the light that's in me since the first day
You were my crux I was your hostage
I need a new persona to explain my thoughts with
I saw my own face it's a bad omen
I need to reevaluate it seems my brain is broken
We share a bed but we aren't lovers
Is anything real the others body shudders
I can't hold on I'm breaking down
Is this the life I resign to now
Thought process how complex
Am I overthinking I'm a fucking mess
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10. |
???
00:35
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I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand myself
I just wanna understand you
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11. |
Blood and Grime
01:22
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My heart is full of blood and longing for safety
My heart is full of love and a want to be free
My lungs are full of breaths inside my little chest
But I need you
But it's all metaphysical
But I'm all dust and soot
And grime and blood and gore
My life is full of pain I need some help please
My want for something good leaves me unhealthy
In the long run man I just wanna be stronger
My eyes are full of tears I've felt pain all these years
God I need you
But it's all metaphysical
But I'm all dust and soot
And grime and blood and gore
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12. |
Cocoon
02:25
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I walk around every day and nothing feels right
The sound of my voice the color of my eyes and hair
And all my body parts fall in line
With all the other defective parts I'm universally out of sync
I mean regardless logically there must be something wrong
I'm nowhere near looking like how I want to be
Logically how I want to be
Logically how I want to be
Well logically it's who I am inside and who I am inside oh she just will not die oh
When I finally get on estrogen am I gonna feel like myself again
When I finally get on estrogen am I gonna feel like myself again
This fleshy fucking vessels gotta be more trouble than it's fucking worth
Every second of my life that I cannot
Feel my heartbeat inside oh I'd rather die oh I'd rather die
Than stay like this forever and never change or evolve
And hope my problems will solve themselves
Oh but I can't yet wait what if it's way too early
What if I regret changing more than I currently regret my birth
Regret my birth
I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you
What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon
I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you
What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon
I was the grass I was the leaves
I was the light she saw in me
Where are the days when you would say
I miss you more in every way
I broke my back I walked away
I opened up to you that day
You shoved it right back in my face
Did you and I mean anything
I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you
What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon
I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you
What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon
I was the grass I was the leaves
I was the light she saw in me
Where are the days when you would say
I miss you more in every way
I broke my back I walked away
I opened up to you that day
You shoved it right back in my face
Did you and I mean anything
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13. |
Changing My Name
01:49
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Sometimes you need to hear your flaws are pretty
To ease the shame of what i am
To ease the hurt inside my hands
Cause fear it takes flight
Clasps your neck and grips the knife
Can you stay by my side
I really think i need a little help beating this tonight
Now I'm a hostage
Well we all make up for the things we didn't plan
Hes saying everything will be alright
But i don't know if i fuckin' believe him
Sometimes you need to hear your jokes are funny
I'm trapped inside my own head
Need to adjust my thought process
I wasn't this way a few nights ago
I need to hold back so lets take it slow
But sometimes you feel
Like you're nothing
Like you're gonna lose control
It's funny how loose we get so come on lets keep it so
Shaky knees and nightlight
Together we sit as fake as we are alive
The only way that this makes sense
Is if we change our names and forever
We're gonna change our names and forever
Stay by each others sides
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14. |
In A Dark Room
04:50
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If I can't be who I said I am
Then I'll tie myself back with my same two hands and
Never grow never progress past this
'Cause I'm stuck with this idea in my head
Of being myself and being loved by my friends
And you've got a lot of leverage
It's your personality I guess
I just wanna show affection
And live life without painful distractions
I just want peace I just want everyone to be happy
I just a want a piece of happiness
You got me going now I'm
Never gonna leave you now
You really got me going now
I'm so fixated on your eyes I cannot look down
Cannot look down cannot look down
It's like I'm losing all my brains
They leaked out through my ears
And I will never be the same
You taught me how to love myself in a dark room
You taught me how to bleed
You taught me how to love myself in a dark room
You taught me how to bleed
Breath in breath out
I'm going back and forth so now
I'll breath in breath in breath out
You taught me to go back and forth so now
I'll breath in breath in breath out
You just gotta trust me
You just gotta trust me baby
You just gotta trust me
You just gotta trust me baby
You just gotta trust me
You just gotta trust me baby
I don't wanna love me
But I said I could love anybody
I'm going back and forth so now
I'll breath in breath in breath out
You taught me to go back and forth so now
I'll breath in breath in breath out
You taught me how to love myself in a dark room
You taught me how to bleed
You taught me how to love myself in a dark room
You taught me how to bleed
Breath in breath out
I'm going back and forth so now
I'll breath in breath in breath out
You taught me to go back and forth so now
I'll breath in breath in breath out
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metagirl Manchester, UK
metagirl (fka aqua girl) is the solo project of Elora Faith ***** (Stars). she also yells and writes hooks as angel netcode for the trashcore band ANGEL_TECH.
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