Hello? I think I'm part of you I think we lost touch somewhere along the line And I really want to come back and spend some time with you Open my mind to you Love you

What am I to do I want so bad to love you If you try we can change It doesn't have to be this way That's right I'm fine I just checked off the last thing on my List of things I gotta do before I die I've seen the world I've explored every nook and cranny After all you didn't give me much of a choice You left me cold So I folded up my paper soul and I learned how to cope What am I to do I want so bad to love you If you try we can change It doesn't have to be this way Won't you be mine I think I got it all figured out Just in time for you to leave my dumb-ass behind I learned to code You skipped your classes for a warm bowl Even though you knew you'd only further push me away I guess I'll leave now 'Cause you won't talk to me yeah you won't even open your mouth What am I to do I want so bad to love you If you try we can change It doesn't have to be this way I wanted to be friends I guess this is how it ends You don't wanna be mine I think that I'll be just fine I think that I'll be just fine I think that I'll be just fine

You took my picture with a Polaroid camera I sat cross legged on the floor and I never try to break bad habits And I can't forget your name anymore 'Cause It's engraved on my shoulder And even though you'll hurt me We'll try our best and I love you I love you I love you We can stay this way forever Is that possible I'm willing to bet I'm right I could write songs and wallow in self pity all I want But that won't help me change to include And accommodate healthy behavior patterns So I'll wait for real inspiration to arrive And even though you'll hurt me We'll try our best and I love you I love you I love you We can stay this way forever Is that possible I'm willing to bet I'm right I could lie and say every year I never change but my Poetry gets increasingly loose and my love Is expanding by the day to include People I don't even like And even though you'll hurt me We'll try our best and I love you I love you I love you We can stay this way forever Is that possible I'm willing to bet I'm right Can we stay this way forever Can we stay this way forever Can we stay this way forever Can we stay this way We can stay this way forever We can stay this way forever We can stay this way forever We can stay this way

Gently I will follow you inside Gently I will love you 'till I die Slowly we will change over time Kindly will you keep me in your mind Gently I will tell you how much Open we will stay to whats to come Gently something will leave us after dawn Only to return with the lessons and what I've learned and what I've done No matter what happens to us I'm gonna keep keeping up I'm gonna keep needing us I'm gonna stay yours No matter what happens to us I'm gonna keep keeping up I'm gonna keep needing us I'm gonna stay yours No matter what happens to us I'm gonna keep keeping up I'm gonna keep needing us I'm gonna stay yours No matter what happens to us I'm gonna keep keeping up I'm gonna keep needing us I'm gonna stay yours

It's a funny game we're playing trespassing in the school It's funnier how you're looking at me as if I'm actually cool Get caught up in the lies we tell I won't Tell on you We wear white shirts We lose our minds on the premises We're kicking up dirt Empty halls and empty promises And I won't forgive you for the things you've done to me I'ts just unhealthy And I can't forgive you for the things you've said to me Your mind is a factory It's funny how you think breaking the rules Makes you more of a boy The fact is you're wrong you should just be yourself But in the end I'm not your toy And that annoys you I can't be destroyed My mind is mine and nothing more And I won't forgive you for the things you've done to me I'ts just unhealthy And I can't forgive you for the things you've said to me Your mind is a factory

You're too much like her And I'm too much like my father We all got what we wanted A chance at freedom a chance to find ourselves Where are we going I just wanna know so I can follow you there It's already snowing Please don't leave me standing here in the cold Standing here in the cold I know I'm not the one you wanted me to be But I know I am the only way that I can be

I broke down 'cause I saw the street you crushed my heart on Polarity switched like a god damn magnet In the middle of our prime Oh no Oh no Oh no You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel Me I can't feel that way Me I can't act my age Me Living out all my days Me Forever on the stage Of my heart I left you in our prime but it was all your fault But you bet your bottom fucking dollar That I'd be back really really soon Oh you knew I could never leave you You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel You spent a lot of time telling me how I'm supposed to feel Me I can't feel that way Me I can't act my age Me Living out all my days Me Forever on the stage Of my art But I never came back But I never came back But I never came back But I never came back Oh no Oh no Oh no Oh no

But now the tears won't come to my eyes It's like I never learned how to cry Just kept it all pent up inside For most of those years Losing sight of my mind And never left this disguise Until I saw a blinding light Now my old body's eviscerated and what's left is greatly damaged Love you Love you Can I love myself Can I become her Just give me some kind of sign I wanna reevaluate my life But oh I'm stuck trying so hard To not let it show Scraping myself by until I'm Bled bone fucking dry Crawling on the ground headed in the right direction Love you Love you Can I love myself Can I become her Leave your scrapes behind I know you're bruised but I don't mind We know how to stay beautiful inside Always stay the way that we want to be

Elora lost her mind in the canyons serpentine Elora leave me here to drown my eyes and disappear If it's over to you then it's over to me too If it's over to you then it's over to me too Take me on a bike-ride through the hills I cannot identify my own mass appeal I am insane I can't lose the weight But I'm holding on to the light that's in me since the first day You were my crux I was your hostage I need a new persona to explain my thoughts with I saw my own face it's a bad omen I need to reevaluate it seems my brain is broken We share a bed but we aren't lovers Is anything real the others body shudders I can't hold on I'm breaking down Is this the life I resign to now Thought process how complex Am I overthinking I'm a fucking mess

I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand myself I just wanna understand you

My heart is full of blood and longing for safety My heart is full of love and a want to be free My lungs are full of breaths inside my little chest But I need you But it's all metaphysical But I'm all dust and soot And grime and blood and gore My life is full of pain I need some help please My want for something good leaves me unhealthy In the long run man I just wanna be stronger My eyes are full of tears I've felt pain all these years God I need you But it's all metaphysical But I'm all dust and soot And grime and blood and gore

I walk around every day and nothing feels right The sound of my voice the color of my eyes and hair And all my body parts fall in line With all the other defective parts I'm universally out of sync I mean regardless logically there must be something wrong I'm nowhere near looking like how I want to be Logically how I want to be Logically how I want to be Well logically it's who I am inside and who I am inside oh she just will not die oh When I finally get on estrogen am I gonna feel like myself again When I finally get on estrogen am I gonna feel like myself again This fleshy fucking vessels gotta be more trouble than it's fucking worth Every second of my life that I cannot Feel my heartbeat inside oh I'd rather die oh I'd rather die Than stay like this forever and never change or evolve And hope my problems will solve themselves Oh but I can't yet wait what if it's way too early What if I regret changing more than I currently regret my birth Regret my birth I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon I was the grass I was the leaves I was the light she saw in me Where are the days when you would say I miss you more in every way I broke my back I walked away I opened up to you that day You shoved it right back in my face Did you and I mean anything I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon I shaved my legs for you I broke my fucking neck for you What else can I do this is a painful tight cocoon I was the grass I was the leaves I was the light she saw in me Where are the days when you would say I miss you more in every way I broke my back I walked away I opened up to you that day You shoved it right back in my face Did you and I mean anything

Sometimes you need to hear your flaws are pretty To ease the shame of what i am To ease the hurt inside my hands Cause fear it takes flight Clasps your neck and grips the knife Can you stay by my side I really think i need a little help beating this tonight Now I'm a hostage Well we all make up for the things we didn't plan Hes saying everything will be alright But i don't know if i fuckin' believe him Sometimes you need to hear your jokes are funny I'm trapped inside my own head Need to adjust my thought process I wasn't this way a few nights ago I need to hold back so lets take it slow But sometimes you feel Like you're nothing Like you're gonna lose control It's funny how loose we get so come on lets keep it so Shaky knees and nightlight Together we sit as fake as we are alive The only way that this makes sense Is if we change our names and forever We're gonna change our names and forever Stay by each others sides

If I can't be who I said I am Then I'll tie myself back with my same two hands and Never grow never progress past this 'Cause I'm stuck with this idea in my head Of being myself and being loved by my friends And you've got a lot of leverage It's your personality I guess I just wanna show affection And live life without painful distractions I just want peace I just want everyone to be happy I just a want a piece of happiness You got me going now I'm Never gonna leave you now You really got me going now I'm so fixated on your eyes I cannot look down Cannot look down cannot look down It's like I'm losing all my brains They leaked out through my ears And I will never be the same You taught me how to love myself in a dark room You taught me how to bleed You taught me how to love myself in a dark room You taught me how to bleed Breath in breath out I'm going back and forth so now I'll breath in breath in breath out You taught me to go back and forth so now I'll breath in breath in breath out You just gotta trust me You just gotta trust me baby You just gotta trust me You just gotta trust me baby You just gotta trust me You just gotta trust me baby I don't wanna love me But I said I could love anybody I'm going back and forth so now I'll breath in breath in breath out You taught me to go back and forth so now I'll breath in breath in breath out You taught me how to love myself in a dark room You taught me how to bleed You taught me how to love myself in a dark room You taught me how to bleed Breath in breath out I'm going back and forth so now I'll breath in breath in breath out You taught me to go back and forth so now I'll breath in breath in breath out